Stupid little lamb

So when I have liked a band for a while but never really listened to their music until like a certian song comes out. An example of this is Paramore. I have liked them ever since I heard Misery Business...but never really like completely listened to their other songs...besides like the singles that they have had. So now that they have had the song Decode(which right now is in my status) and it is in Twilight(which I have been reading those books). Yes I started listening to them more now that I have really gotten hooked on Decode...so what. I think of it this way. I am listening to a GREAT band(which I think 3 of them are younger than I am, know Josh is older and not sure about Jeremy...yes including Taylor on that) that makes such good music. Even though most people I know wouldn't call them stuff that I would(I can't put it into words on this without like making it sound really weird), I love that I can just hear certian messages in the music that I had never really heard before. It helps me out a lot...I love that I can have a band like that....I have had a couple people be like "oh you aren't a true fan cause you didn't like them til Decode." it hurts me so much to have people even say that to me.



update on my book progress. I made it throught New Moon(boring kinda...least favorite) and Eclipse and have just over 100 pages left of Breaking Dawn. I have to say that this is one of my favorite series ever...no matter what other people say to me. Like I don't really like Jacob, but from what a few of my friends have told me not very many people do. I have a theory that most people who like him only because it is Taylor that is playing him in the movies. haha...I kinda wish they would have went on the thing they were going to do, replace him with Michael Copon for when he would have had to get taller and stuff. haha...then maybe I would turn and like Jacob...J/K...EXTREMELY. haha. yeah...I will always be team Edward.

btw...when I went on Wed. of last week to Walmart my sis and I were looking at the Twilight stuff...they had about 30 of each shirt that they have there. I went back on Friday and they were SOLD OUT of the team Edward shirts that they had, and had like 1/2 of the Jacob shirts left...I was like well I know who almost everyone likes...haha.

I have officially been sucked in....

So from the title it could be about anything. I have finally gave in and read Twilight and am on New Moon right now. I have to say that this series is one of my favorites. I can't really put the books down...but I needed to now cause I just couldn't read anymore...my eyes were hurting. I am going to most likely have that done by tomorrow night, Saturday at the latest. I really like the books. My brother thinks I am listening to Paramore now more cause of it...cause of Decode. I really like the song, so much I put it as my Facebook status. haha. I wish I had the money to go to Walmart this weekend and buy it...or a shirt that I found that I love. haha.

so wow...

So about 2 and 1/2 years ago my youth pastor announced he was leaving our church to go and be a youth pastor at a church in South Dakota. I couldn't cry at all when he told us...I was just going through shock I guess. Well I came home and needed to write one of my friends about another friend and what happened. So I just went on myspace because I have no clue why. Then went to Jon Steingard's myspace page, which was kinda random cause I would have usually gone to like Hawk's, Jordan's or FF5's. The first song on his player at that time was this song called "Through The Wires". I sat there and bawled. It was really amazing that God spoke to me through that song and I didn't even realize it at that time. Here are the lyrics to it(written by Jon).

Through the Wires

Where do you go when you're alone?
The rain on your face, the wind
and the cold.
You smile cuz you know, you're not far now,
This is your
escape, and everyone knows that.

California seems so far from wherever you are.

I feel like a ghost everywhere I go,
Never really alive, never really
alone.
I need to get back where I belong,
You're becoming a home, and it's
the warmest I've known, but

California seems so far from wherever you are.

Set my heart on fire.
I'll take you in right through the wires.
So
you can make it back inside.
I'll take you in right through the
wires.

It hurts, but I'll try so hard,
To make a mile an inch, make the ocean a
fog.
No matter how warm we keep our hearts,
The atlantic is cold, and it
keeps us apart.

California seems so far from wherever you are.

Set my heart on fire.
I'll take you in right through the wires.
So you
can make it back inside.
I'll take you in right through the wires.

Is this some kind of fantasy, or something that's real to me?

I think that like it just made me realize that I can get through that grief of losing my youth pastor who helped me through so much....even starting to trust him. Go to http://jonathansteingard.blogspot.com/2009/03/come-and-get-it.html then to the music page to get a remix of the song. it is compressed zip so you will have to extract it.