I'm So Sick-Flyleaf

so right now I am so sick of the way that my extended family treats me and my siblings. I have always felt like one of my parents families thinks we should be like perfect little angels because we grew up in a christian home. also that we really shouldn't read, watch, or listen to anything that they consider "bad". I am always getting told by my mom that they are yelling at her to not have us reading/watching Twilight. WHO CARES...I LIKE TWILIGHT AND AM PROUD OF IT. I don't truly believe that vampires/werewolves are real. Personally I believe that the main point of the books is that it truly a love story. SO STOP TELLING ME WHAT I AM TO DO WITH MY LIFE.

sticks and stones.

I first want you to go and read this post...what the person said at the beginning hurts me so badly.
http://jonathansteingard.blogspot.com/2009/07/re-views.html#links

that person thinks that they know the Hawk Nelson, Stellar Kart, Switchfoot, Flyleaf, Family Force 5, Underoath, bands like them. Saying they are ungodly pretty much. They don't even know them. I know at least those first five bands are made up of VERY GODLY men and woman(Flyleaf). I have had the opportunity to meet those five bands at least once...HN is up to 5 and SK is at 2...they are going out into the world and doing what God has pretty much put on their hearts. I am so sick of people bringing these bands that I love so much down because they aren't staying in the "christian realm" of things. Like grow up people. The bible even says to go out into the world make disciples of everyone....I am sorry if you haven't read that part...but wait...I learned that verse when I was in Sunday School.

These people call themselves "christians" but go and tear down their brothers and sisters in christ because they don't think they are doing "what God wants" in their lives. Funny thing is that I can see Jesus shining through them more than I can see it in most "christians" I know. I think I have posted about this before but it is something that really hurts me to see people tearing them down. well I just needed to rant.

Why aren't Kellan and Jackson considered Twilight heartthrobs?

So like looking over blogs and stuff...the heartthrobs are mainly Cam, Rob or Taylor. Don't really see many like Kellan or Jackson confessions. CONFESSION: I think that Jackson and Kellan are both hotties and guys to watch out for as they are both getting more leading roles. I think it is funny that Kellan isn't up for "hottest chest" on People.com. He would win...check out his 8 pack in this picture.

And Jackson...um...well he can play instraments and sing...and personally that makes me think that he is a heartthrob. He is a cutie too. Like he is going to be doing a lot more things, he has 6 things for sure out in the next 2 years, and that doesn't include New Moon or Eclipse. I am really excited to see my favorite Disney short show host going so far. Kellan has only 3 that are on IMDB.com but I know that they will be amazing. I want to see Warrior(which also includes Ashley Greene). I am not saying that I don't like any of the other guys...because they are all really good looking but they do get a lot more attention for being "hot" than Kellan and Jackson.I loved that Twilight won for almost every award they were up for. Cam lost to Heath Ledger for best villian(which is okay) and Decode(Paramore) lost to The Climb(Miley Cyrus) for best song from a movie. Favorite Twilight parts:

• Rob's acceptance speech for Breakthrough Male..."i think I might have some coming out of my pants"...haha.


• Kristen and Rob faking everyone out when they won "best kiss".
  


• The best movie acceptance, all of them on stage, with Catherine. I loved how Peter was like "Stephanie" after Catherine had thanked her.
  


• Kristen knocking the award off the stand when she won best actress.
  


• Jim Carrey's speech, the Prop 8 reference with Rob, Cam patting Rob's shoulder when they went in on him.
  


• When Jim Carrey and Adam were going back and forth before Leann Rimes, Chris Issacs, and Forrest Wittacker singing. You could see most of the cast. (I was like eee...haha.)
  


• THE PREVIEW THING FOR NEW MOON. Taylor at the end of setting it up....my sister was like "well I don't have Tivo". haha.

Yeah...done for now...will hopefully write more this month.

Kellan Lutz has become my favorite actor...haha.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y1U-QakP24Y
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s-TNKVk5atc

the first one is of Kellan doing an interview with a magazine that Rob was in in 03...it is pretty funny. The second is of him doing another interview at Acciocon this last weekend, he talks about Rob, Edward and stunts in it. it is really good. He is #10 on the Starmeter on IMDB.com. After most of the other Cullens(Elizabeth Reaser isn't on it)...and it only has 2 people not in twilight on the list(Liam Neeson and his deseased wife Natasha Richardson). haha. I had watched both Stick It and Accepted in the movie theater when it came out. Never really noticed his name at the end(but I thought he was good looking when I saw Stick It). But then I was pretty much introduced to him when I started to look up stuff about Twilight. and I just like look at other sites and stuff. I knew what his name was pretty much from me starting to like Twilight. Then their are people who call him "the guy who played Emmett in Twilight". I was like laughing when I told this one chick who was freaking out over my bag and shirt that he was in both of those movies.

In other news...I knew a band before they even made it to my church...haha. the youth group is having this band called "The Cause" come and do worship for them. I found out about them through the Cup O Joy's website and checked them out and liked them. Then found out they were going to be at BASIC books the night after their show at the Cup and yeah. Then a couple weeks ago our youth pastor told me that they were getting a band and when she said the name I was like "woah...I know of them". haha. I can't help with them that night though cause AWANA is still going on at that point. So I have to be in the children's wing. haha.

I was unconditionally and irrevocably in love with him

So like I was looking up Twilight stuff yesterday cause I was going off of my Igoogle stuff(yes...I have Twilight on my igoogle...haha). And I came across pictures from the New Moon set. about 1/2 of them were of the cast smoking, which I don't really care about...it is their bodies and they are adults and none can make them do anything. here is the link to it http://www.celebuzz.com/up-minute-new-moon-pics-g93261/ ...I like reading the comments cause all of them are like "eww..." "we hate smokers" "we don't want you to smoke"..."everyone smokes on that set". Which isn't true cause of Taylor and Ashley and Jackson not having any pics(if they do) of them smoking. Like grow up people...who cares if they smoke. They know what it does to them...and they choose to keep on doing it. I just feel bad that Robert and Kristen really get the brunt of everything with that.
So many people like think that they cast should be like perfect...they need a wake up call...NO ONE IS PERFECT. Personally I don't like people who think that they are perfect. yeah...I think I am done with that.

If you could, could you pray for my mom? She sprained her ankle severily a month ago and it isn't healing at all really. Pray that she doesn't need surgery, even though the MRI came back normal. Thanks.

Stupid little lamb

So when I have liked a band for a while but never really listened to their music until like a certian song comes out. An example of this is Paramore. I have liked them ever since I heard Misery Business...but never really like completely listened to their other songs...besides like the singles that they have had. So now that they have had the song Decode(which right now is in my status) and it is in Twilight(which I have been reading those books). Yes I started listening to them more now that I have really gotten hooked on Decode...so what. I think of it this way. I am listening to a GREAT band(which I think 3 of them are younger than I am, know Josh is older and not sure about Jeremy...yes including Taylor on that) that makes such good music. Even though most people I know wouldn't call them stuff that I would(I can't put it into words on this without like making it sound really weird), I love that I can just hear certian messages in the music that I had never really heard before. It helps me out a lot...I love that I can have a band like that....I have had a couple people be like "oh you aren't a true fan cause you didn't like them til Decode." it hurts me so much to have people even say that to me.



update on my book progress. I made it throught New Moon(boring kinda...least favorite) and Eclipse and have just over 100 pages left of Breaking Dawn. I have to say that this is one of my favorite series ever...no matter what other people say to me. Like I don't really like Jacob, but from what a few of my friends have told me not very many people do. I have a theory that most people who like him only because it is Taylor that is playing him in the movies. haha...I kinda wish they would have went on the thing they were going to do, replace him with Michael Copon for when he would have had to get taller and stuff. haha...then maybe I would turn and like Jacob...J/K...EXTREMELY. haha. yeah...I will always be team Edward.

btw...when I went on Wed. of last week to Walmart my sis and I were looking at the Twilight stuff...they had about 30 of each shirt that they have there. I went back on Friday and they were SOLD OUT of the team Edward shirts that they had, and had like 1/2 of the Jacob shirts left...I was like well I know who almost everyone likes...haha.

I have officially been sucked in....

So from the title it could be about anything. I have finally gave in and read Twilight and am on New Moon right now. I have to say that this series is one of my favorites. I can't really put the books down...but I needed to now cause I just couldn't read anymore...my eyes were hurting. I am going to most likely have that done by tomorrow night, Saturday at the latest. I really like the books. My brother thinks I am listening to Paramore now more cause of it...cause of Decode. I really like the song, so much I put it as my Facebook status. haha. I wish I had the money to go to Walmart this weekend and buy it...or a shirt that I found that I love. haha.

so wow...

So about 2 and 1/2 years ago my youth pastor announced he was leaving our church to go and be a youth pastor at a church in South Dakota. I couldn't cry at all when he told us...I was just going through shock I guess. Well I came home and needed to write one of my friends about another friend and what happened. So I just went on myspace because I have no clue why. Then went to Jon Steingard's myspace page, which was kinda random cause I would have usually gone to like Hawk's, Jordan's or FF5's. The first song on his player at that time was this song called "Through The Wires". I sat there and bawled. It was really amazing that God spoke to me through that song and I didn't even realize it at that time. Here are the lyrics to it(written by Jon).

Through the Wires

Where do you go when you're alone?
The rain on your face, the wind
and the cold.
You smile cuz you know, you're not far now,
This is your
escape, and everyone knows that.

California seems so far from wherever you are.

I feel like a ghost everywhere I go,
Never really alive, never really
alone.
I need to get back where I belong,
You're becoming a home, and it's
the warmest I've known, but

California seems so far from wherever you are.

Set my heart on fire.
I'll take you in right through the wires.
So
you can make it back inside.
I'll take you in right through the
wires.

It hurts, but I'll try so hard,
To make a mile an inch, make the ocean a
fog.
No matter how warm we keep our hearts,
The atlantic is cold, and it
keeps us apart.

California seems so far from wherever you are.

Set my heart on fire.
I'll take you in right through the wires.
So you
can make it back inside.
I'll take you in right through the wires.

Is this some kind of fantasy, or something that's real to me?

I think that like it just made me realize that I can get through that grief of losing my youth pastor who helped me through so much....even starting to trust him. Go to http://jonathansteingard.blogspot.com/2009/03/come-and-get-it.html then to the music page to get a remix of the song. it is compressed zip so you will have to extract it.

facts about me.

So one of my friends did this...and I kinda thought it would be fun. So here are some facts about me.

1. I am the second oldest of 4, the summer one. My parents have a kid for each season of the year. My little sister is fall, older sister is winter and brother is spring(technically not...but close enough).

2. I have always loved music. Most people might think I am spoiled when I tell them how many bands I have seen and how many times I have seen some of them, but the truth is...I only really go to like 4 or 5 concerts a year, which two are festivals, which really up the count.

3. I get annoyed when bands spell Oshkosh wrong. They spell it like the clothing company, which yes that did kinda make Oshkosh famous...but yeah. I actually got Leeland to change it...haha.

4. I was affected so much by the tragedy that happened to SCC and his family. I grew up on his music and when I get older I want to adopt a child.
SCC and Mary Beth talking to the person on Huckabee...the end made me cry.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dLeKeUqO3e4
SCC performing Cinderella, the new ending is just wow...it still brings tears to my eyes.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-rOb42jD2v4
I love what he says when he is talking before he performs with them.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rx6E3Yn40y8

5. I am a Jonas Brothers fan. Yes, I am 20 and like the JoBros.

6. My heroes consist of Jesus, my mom, and Hawk Nelson.

7. I have fun with my friends yet don't need them to have fun.

8. Last year I had finally met my first "band person crush"...want to know...im me on aim: Extremegirl243.

9. I have a 5 year old nephew that is my best little buddy. I love him so much...and yeah.

10. This is making me bored.

so that is it...cause I can't think of others.

EEEEEEEEEEEEEKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

I am posting this from Jon Steingard's blog:

"I spent most of last week in the studio tracking guitars for the next hawk
record (due out in July!). It's been a ton of fun so far. This picture is of
some of the pedals we were using on a lead guitar part. Things got a little out
of hand with effects. Haha. As a good friend of mine once said, Rock and Roll is
ugly."

http://jonathansteingard.blogspot.com/2009/01/getting-out-of-hand_30.html

and this is from an update on Facebook from Lifest....

"Hey all... Hawk Nelson is coming to Lifest 2009, playing on Saturday night,
July 11th, right before Third Day."

these two things made my year so far....like holy crap. I love that Hawk's new album is due out in July...if I am lucky the first or last Tuesday. First so I can buy it b4 Lifest(or at Lifest), last it is the tues b4 my b-day. and Lifest...if they are really right before Thrid Day most likely they will be on the grandstand which makes me so proud of them...usually the bands on the Grandstand are big ones or ones that aren't really right for the Edge(which Hawk has played a few times). I am so happy about it.

My Heroes...

Okay I am doing this prayer revolution thing with my church. Sunday was hero day in the book. I kinda chose to write my hero a letter. My Hero is my mother, but I also have 5 other heroes...Daniel Biro, Jason Dunn, Jonathan Steingard, Aaron Tosti and Justin Benner, yes Hawk Nelson. They helped me through so much in my life with their music and just being around at concerts and stuff. I had a rough year from 05-06, stuff with my mom's health and nephew, Letters to the President helped me through a lot that winter and then Smile starting in April. They have never made me feel like a fan(like some of the other fans have made me feel), I always feel like a friend around them. They make everyone feel special when you are around them. I should really talk to them in person and explain all of the stuff that has happened that they really helped me get through. Including the stuff about my nephew. If they read this...they really should comment me...haha.